These cement boxes are cold, a life sustaining tomb. One could say a despondent requiem for life. Reeking like
beer injected piss, old sex, and men who chose to retire from the world. Got a real good night planned- it’s Friday
and I’m going out, I’m going to get trashed like a dumpster straight off the production line. I’m going to take a flight
like a sea gull in the path of a beat up truck. I’ve got no money except for rent but until tomorrow I’ve lost that illness.
& a quite young girl is only happy when she’s drunk other wise she’s just polite. Stability is frail- unsteadiness thrills.
Inside my love is a heavy boot left by a night of a week long gone. Nobody drinks anymore, not since the hallucinates
were removed from absinth. Who wants to be chic? Who wants to be holy? Different worlds collide in your personality
& you don’t have much. Listening to the show I caught your smile, it wasn’t flying around in my direction but I captured
it none-the-less. I’ll fill it with car tracks and sell it to the dealer, it will hang on a wall in the house of a doctor who
went to Italy once many years ago and will tell you of the waves on the shore. She has travelled since but still misses
those waves. I refuse to judge. For I am no better. She makes me laugh with tales of a trashcan philosophy
and Hendrix’s 7th trip.
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Man wakes up.
Looks out of window.
Doesn’t realise he doesn’t care.
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Parasites on ash float like the snow on leaves falling in autumn. Bacteria connecting with artist pedestrians - eyes
closing to dam the tears and stem the sleep - where is the spine that made them? The $, the $, the only true
influence, the only inspiration, a renaissance choking on paper both forged and true, a movement slipping on the
polished coins fallen to the floor, stack them up like the Berlin wall and graffiti them with slogans of freedom.
Behind my back you say nothing, not even worth cleaning the blade that would stab me between my shoulder’s.
Only the cars driven by the taxing soldiers make a noise as my stomach kicks itself with hunger. ‘Fit for an
emperor’ a statement with no truth, no linking honesty and not even a breath of conviction. In any painting
you see fantasies that you are in ,look at it and see what comes to your tiny heart’s prayer. Even the gallery
reeks of piss and caffeine. Remember when smoking was a pleasure not a privilege? I’m having another while
I wait for the faulty sun to flush into the west. I’ve never had anyone die in my arms, never seen life’s final exhale,
does this mean that I haven’t met love? Does this mean I have no poetry in my life? No, a good and lucky life
I lead- show me death and what’s left to write?
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